#that looks pretty close to canon to me
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#crazy ghost eyes hours means going through the deviantart#I mean#at first I wasn’t really taking any info on the deviantart for granted#bc it’s literally from 2017#and the story may have changed#that looks pretty close to canon to me#there’s also some stuff on the ‘greats’ and the whole life goddesses spiel over there#and some minor character stuff as well#but mr papa said he wolud delete it so idk#don’t trust me with shit bro#ghost eyes#ghost eyes webtoon
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Her room was a portrait of his longing. Books left askew. Pages crumpled in haste. Clothes forgotten in his rush to reach her. At long last, the scribe had no need for ink or quill. For in the warmth of her hands, he was reconciled with something words could never capture.
Commission by @/Puri24A on twt. Do not save or repost.
#ryuhaitham#genshin!ryu#comm aside - look it’s my room reveal!!#i know elephants and frangipanis aren’t canon in teyvat but i’d attempt to recreate them in order to remember who i am and#where i came from#i’ve had this vision of my inserts/ocs room for SUCH a long time. i’m so glad puri brought it to life and even added her own touches#the canopy was a must#a slightly untidy room was a must#a room with a lot of character is a must !!#i’ve made it one of my desktop backgrounds alrwsdy 🥺#i think i’d live near that top waypoint in sumeru city next to one of the entrances#idk if anyone is familiar with the streets but there is a pocket of quaint homes close by and one#of the npcs you see is *i think* an elderly man in his garden with his pet cat or dog#the houses overlooks the forest. it’s a really pretty area so i have a hc that alhaitham and i often bring our lunch outside#to watch the scenery#does the caption even make sense? sjdhhsdjdjdh it took all of me to think of something decent#genshin self insert#genshin selfship#yumeship#my selfships#genshin oc#genshin selfships
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"All the love that we had / And the love that we hide / Who will bury us / When we die?"
After finishing the more complex artworks (that I want to post properly tomorrow) the impostor syndrome nagged at my brain and AGH. SO! I did these to shake that feeling and be proud of my chicken-scratched doodles and I ENJOYED IT A TON! Even to the point of doing all the lettering/handwriting on the go using lyrics from "Opportunities" by Pet Shop Boys ♥.
#myart#transformers animated#tfa lockdown#tfa swindle#swinlock#shipping to the moon and back#maccadam#btw if you see something different in how i draw swindle#is because the hip area in the canon design IS HARD TO DRAW FOR ME GRRRR#looks so cluttered to pose him this freely so#i changed it for the sake of my sanity lmao#luv their dynamic so much#two bastards without the need to hide their shit haha#I WOULD LOVE TO DO AN ANIMATIC#TECHNICALY I CAN AND THESE ARE pretty close and perfect key poses but no enough energy for that right now sobs#windydrawallday fanart#ifellinrobothellagain#transformers fanart
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Good morning gamers! Some of y'all already guessed who the Metaphor crush is so I might as well make it more clear-akfnskdns


It's Basilio-
#pan rambles#Y'all expected me to see a guy that's a good cook and expect me Not to fall for him? Did we learn nothing from S.anji?? /lh#Yesterday was pretty funny though-ajdnsj I just kept thinking about my f/os/crushes that are canonically good cooks (Basilio. S.anji. Zhao-)#I think it's kinda funny how you can look at my main 3#(+ a certain unlisted f/o of mine) and slowly piece together why I like all my other f/os-amfnsdnms#They share traits!!! you just have to look closely!#or at least most do-akfnsjfn theres very few that are exceptions#Crush: Basilio
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I'm so exhausted but here's a recent doodle of my pookie <3
#I'm stressed about things and drawing him helps me calm down but it also costs time so I'm more stressed again ughh#why is it already 3am again time is going by way too fast these days#anyway at least I have something pretty to look at now💕#I love myself a man with a slutty waist😌👌#the final drawing is supposed to be for an artstyle challenge so I tried to stick fairly close to his canon look#but honestly I think I could've still pushed it a bit more even just to make him look hotter#okay typing all that took way too long I really need to go to bed now💀#f/o: 🚂#2nd dimension doofenshmirtz#2d doofenshmirtz#heinz doofenshmirtz#dr doofenshmirtz#phineas and ferb#across the 2nd dimension#at2d#villain f/o#fictional other#sketch#digital art#selniasart
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#i finally did smth w my bored as fuck want to create state lol#lyric from close to you by gracie a/brams the way i was just looking thru lyrics and saw this#and im like idk what that means but i like the words#the rest of these tags are unrelated af lol#yeo what the fuck do the j/atp boys have canonical birthdays#the way im like going crazy trying to find if it's canon or just a tumblr made up thing LMAO#me planning this j/atp watch party w my freidns for july 7 (which was coincidental)#(and lowkey for my bday but theyre busy on my actual bday)#and i was like wait i'm pretty sure july 7th is literally alex's bday#but i cannot tell if actualy canon from what i have found that says july 7 for alex idk what the SOURCE is lol#it def is on tumblr at least tho lmao#bro why does doing this kind of for my bday make me like embarrassed or smth lmfao 💀#like ughhhh i wanna hang out w my friends for my bday that's so weird and embarrassing euhghhh LMAO#anyway i'm so excited to reignite al my embarrassing j/atp crazy fan things w my other crazy j/atp fan friend LOL#i rewatched to a point where i was reciting the lines back to the screen and doing choreography 💀💀💀 so#i'm so excited tho LMFAO i haven't watched in sooooo long 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#i'm literally gonna be unable to stop smiling and/or crying#if i'm in a crying mood i will def be crying bc i miss them so much#if not i will literally just be uncontrollably smiling the whole fucking time#i'm coming home baybee LMAO#(jk maybe that would be like rewatching gIee for the first time in a long time . which still has to happen ig lol)#jeanne talks
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because im less breakable than you
#still dont really remember the details of how this ends but still thinking they couldve made laura vampire instead of carmilla human#also keep thinking - as with all the things recently idk why this is a thing now but i gotta keep thinking abt it - that canonically#carmilla died at 18#laura is 19#actresses are 25ish here? it's not a big difference but it is...a little difference#theyre teenagers#they look like teenagers#she fucking died at her first ball hoping to make her first ever friend it's so sad really#but i was thinking abt this too with the iwtv episode where claudia asks armand to turn madeleine and he goes to question her#like certain lines are just so very specifically written i think and they hit so much harder if you adjust their ages mentally#claudia looks 14. shes from 1903 so shes around 40-45 years old?#madeleine's actress is 30ish i believe and i think madeleine is meant to be a similar age#but she looks kind of young. i guess 30 is pretty young actually#armand in the show was turned at 27? assad zaman is 34? close enough i guess you dont have to adjust that much#but in the book hes turned at 17?#like just some lines really hit#when claudia calls madeleine 'some weird white lady i met by happenstance'#imagine a 14 yo talking abt a 30 yo instead of two people who look similar in age#when madeleine calls armand young man when shes like theres nothing left of my era theres been a war#i think she says like 'young man theres been a war'#that 'young man' really hits if you imagine him 17#idk#also still thinking abt yaz. if she looked 19#idk. teenage vampires man#also been reading the book and forever5yo claudia is fascinating too i love her#also can they do telepathy in the book bc i feel like a lot of times in the book it's that claudia is being carried by louis like a 5yo#that she whispers stuff in his ear. and thats always the kind of stuff that in the show they'd use telepathy for#it's a good solution both ways i lik eboth but it made me wonder did they just add the telepathy in entirely in the show?#bc i dont believe theres been any so far in the book
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#so.... i have toughts.#about 'Escaping Virtuality'.#one of them was ''what if Caines human body was created using bits and pieces of the others' bodies''?#it would explain why Kingers prescription worked for him#it would also explain where he got his human body from.#i think ive talked about this but im pretty sure Caine would have difficulty walking#We havent seen him canonically walk in anything. he just... floats#im pretty sure that hed be incredibly wobbly whilst attempting to walk#i can already imagine him holding on to one of the other humans because he kept falling over#he hasnt seen his own face yet either#it would be amazing to get a description on how caine looks now when he sees his face in a mirror.#i wonder how hed react to seeing his face.#you know that strange feeling you get when you stare at yourself in a mirror?#the whole ''that is me.'' feeling? the one that gets you entranced and makes you focus on the details of your face?#...the question is- how would he see his own face?#Widows peak hairline. Hooked nose. And of course- he'd have those two mismatched eyes!#and what would happen once everyone else got outside outside of the office building?#are they considered missing in reality? how would those that were close to them react?#or does time pass slowly in the digital world?#and theres Caine. he definitely doesnt exist in legal terms considering that he was previously an computer AI#now that Caine is no longer an AI and is just himself without any code controlling him in any way whatsoever-#how would he react if he realised how messed up some of the stuff he did as ringmaster was?#hed probally have a breakdown and a half#ive been re-reading chapter 3 ever since i woke up and because of that my brain keeps thinking of random ideas related to it#and how do the rest of the humans look?#it would be great to hear as i could finally draw some scenes from it! :-)#EscapingVirtuality#seasalt speaks
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I am very tired and I want to sleep but instead I'm thinking about Benjamin Park... I don't know why this character who's around for all of half an hour has such a death grip on me but he does.
#my mind is an odd place#anyway he and Richard should meet up I think they'd have a lot in common and could be friends#also by DBD Richard would be pretty close to Benjamin's age and both characters get shipped with pretty much everyone so#although honestly I think they might be too similar for anything to happen. they'd just talk about their traumas and failings#and then stare into the middle distance together#biggest difference is that Richard is canonically gorgeous while I don't think any in-universe mention was made of Benjamin's looks#also Richard has Childhood Trauma and Family Issues while at least between my friends and I we're like let's give Benjamin a good family#the entire rest of his everything is fucked up and we generally make things worse but at least he can have that#anyway this has been Tag Rambling About Audio Only Characters with Me#gonna try and go to sleep goodnight#why did I just remember my grandparents and get sad it's been years since they passed
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Clio, Writer of Histories and Apollo, Bard of the People
#azem#apollo azem#clio#clio ancient#g'raha tia#n'ephele#“would you still love me if i was a catboy?” energy#sorry the ancients are so sketchy and weird anatomy too its hard to do art when i feel like i need to do multiple drafts for everything#so i just went for it#rem art#my post#clio muse#ffxiv#ffxiv ancients#ffxiv azem#endwalker#so WHAT if they look exactly like they were depicted in antiquity with very little if any changes#actually looking at the canonical gods we have they all look pretty close to their inspirations so ehh#g’raha
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i haven't even seen welcome to raccoon city beyond like an analysis video on it and a trailer but i'm still upset about it osjskdjdkfj
#like it doesn't even matter since they can't make a good re screen adaptation anyways#i'm just kinda like ?????????#wesker isn't even wesker???????????#like i thought he was an entirely different character at first#claire is. fine i guess except she's SUPER close with chris in the games#like. she literally came to raccoon city because she hadn't heard from him for a few months and went to check in on him#because it wasn't like him. and he left instructions for jill to tell claire that he was okay!!!!!!!!#SPEAKING OF JILL. where is nemesis. where is that entire plotline from re3#SHE DIDNT MEET LEON UNTIL MUCH LATER#and leon...... hoo boy#apparently the director really likes his character but like. he completely butchered him akdjskfjdjf#look at how they massacred my boy#in the movie he's like 'bet you're wondering why i'm here because me too'#in re2 he LITERALLY tells ada that he wants to save people at all costs#i get that a lot of later iterations of him have him being this cold and uncaring asshole honestly#but i think that the core of the character isn't really an antihero at all?#not like the director/writer was saying anyways#(my hot take is that re4r leon is the most true to the character as someone who's barely scratched the surface of the franchise)#(like most people tend to prefer the wise cracking guy who shakes off most everything that he pretends to be)#(and i'm like congrats! you fell for it.)#(hi i have a ton of thoughts on leon because of like. one game.)#chris is whatever idk i don't care for him much. i didn't see anything that stood out aside from the same issue i had with claire#they talk ALL the time okay like actually canonically i'm pretty sure they'd tell each other everything#like post re8 chris goes to claire and rants about EVERYTHING relating to ethan and mia and rose and miranda and the megamycete#and claire is just absorbing the plot of that game like o_o mhm i see#anyways!#seems like an okay action movie but directors continue to be unable to produce a good live action resident evil movie
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man. scrolling through a0.3 makes me realise just how fucking picky i am about kaeya interpretations fjdkjkdlks
#i loooove canon kaeya but fanon kaeya is my worst enemy lmao#its like. yknow that post that goes 'youve fallen for the characters facade!' fanon kaeya is the opposite of that#its hard to explain but tldr sometimes i do wanna slap a 'its not that deep' sticker on him. not everything he does is some master plan lik#im saying he gets woobified a lot to the point of uncomfortableness.#like kaeya has a lot of things going on but at the end of the day hes just a guy. he likes tcg and gets shy about praise and is kinda nerdy#i think about that moment in the bottleland event where he had to be told to stand closer to the microphone bcs he was too quiet....#and dare i say kaeya just wants to be a guy. he made it pretty damn clear in his hangout that he loves mond and has no intention of joining#his birth father if the abyss/remnants of khaenriah try to start a war#sorry. i have more to say but i have to go. let me just close off here by saying that i think most people want sad uwu kaeya than actually#look at the text of the game lmao#step right up! || 🪄.txt
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OMG I FORGOT TO POST UUUUUUUUHHHH…
STRAWHAT POST TIME SKIP REDESIGN PART 2: NAMI
my very convoluted thought process! enjoy some word vomit! i was especially indecisive on her haircut and how to incorporate some glitz and glamour :/
she’s not as fancy (i.e. jewelry and expensive clothes) as i would’ve wanted her to be :( but i looove tomboy nami a lot so i still really like her outfit
the nami on the left is more of a restyling meant to stay pretty close to her canon design, just so that i could gauge what it was about her og look that i did and didn’t like :0


i’m a little angry at myself for keeping the bikini bra, cause i’ve seen really cool nami designs that aren’t blatantly “sexy” and make her a cooler outfit with a garment other than a bra. but also! she’s chubby! she’s transfem! she’s a lesbian! she’s a criminal! let her be sexy! for the ladies! and for herself! that’s cheesy but idk that’s my thoughts on it
i also think the teal aviator jacket is pretty ingenious! i guess i kinda wanted to give her a similar vibe to kiki from kiki’s delivery service. like how kiki’s both a mail delivery girl and a witch, and now nami’s both a pilot and a witch! idk… does that make sense??? i just have this very vivid imagine in my brain of nami using the clima tact like a broom to fly… but that’s what zeus is for…? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
ALSO REAL QUICK! COMPASS AND SQUARE PIN ON HER JACKET! IN NO WAY RELATED TO FREEMASONRY OR WHATEVER! THAT SYMBOL HAS A “G” IN THE MIDDLE! I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT FREEMASONRY IS I JUST FOUND OUT ABOUT IT RIGHT BEFORE POSTING THIS! ITS JUST A COMPASS AND SQUARE CAUSE SHES THE NAVIGATOR AND I THOUGHT IT WAS CUTE! ok psa over :D

zeus!! he’s silly!! but with a less stupid hat! maybe more stupid hat idk! :D

i’m gonna tweak everyone’s jolly roger a little bit to match my redesigns (maybe not zoro’s tho i like it as it is and matches him pretty well already… and definitely not luffy’s cause it’s the crew’s insignia)
uuuuuhhh i hope y’all like it! suggestions for making it better are appreciated!!
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#artists on tumblr#one piece#character redesign#one piece redesign#op nami#nami#cat burglar nami#also i am gonna post a full zoro design at some point#the old post was just color testing#and i’ve added more detail to him now#uuuuugh i’ve been struggling so much with sanji#idk how to balance how much i want to make him aggressively transfem#but also make him close enough to canon that i don’t get embarrassed by how self indulgent my redesign is ;-;#i have usopp’s concept completely planned out too#i just haven’t drawn the full body yet#cause end of school year art block#also idk how to draw that long nose from a front view and that’s bugging me#luffy is almost completely done#i just want to add more detail#cause he looks pretty simple and almost identical to canon#robin and franky are in the works too#i’ve compiled references and have a general idea of what i wanna do#chopper is a mystery to me#idk what to do with him…#uuuuuh ok i’ve said enough#this was over the course of like 2-3 months btw#i’m not overworking myself on this lol#sproouts.jpeg
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I really can't stand when people draw Naruto with mostly flat k pop pretty boy hair. It makes me want to set my phone on fire.
#to clarify#if you draw Naruto kinda close to cannon:) if you draw Naruto with an afro :D if you yassify my boy >:(#i love when people do cool hair interpretation of characters!#i just think that like. drawing Naruto like that is not only unfaithful yo canon in yhe most boring way possible#but it actually kinda takes something away for me. like. Naruto is beautiful to me but hes not some handsome pretty boy#he looks like some guy. and i find that grounding and wonderful.
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“WHERE IS MY WIFE?”
♡ — 𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘: curses & curse users have discovered satoru’s greatest weakness, and it’s you, satoru’s sweet, ordinary housewife. after getting kidnapped by gojo’s enemies, he’ll do whatever it takes to get you back.
♡ — 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐓: 18+ only - mdni - slightly dark content // brief smut, fem reader, feral gojo, canon-typical violence, reader gets kidnapped, reader is wounded/has injuries, angst, fluff/comfort
♡ — 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃 𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐓: 5K
♡ —𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑’𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄: I’d count grains of sand if it meant I could spend one minute alone with feral gojo (:
As evening fell, and after a delicious dinner was eaten at the dining table downstairs, Satoru was in the mood for something else now — you.
His pretty housewife would be his dessert.
The apple pie you baked was sitting on the dark marbled counter of the kitchen island, two big slices missing — and the vanilla ice cream tub in the freezer had, of course, two hefty spherical digs in it where the cold treat was scooped out — but, even after his stomach was stuffed after a hard day of fighting curses and teaching his students, Satoru’s head was buried in between your soft thighs, satisfying his other craving.
As your husband moaned softly, his tongue danced around your aching clit. His large hand massaged your thigh. The moonlight pouring in through the big bedroom window shined upon his wedding ring, making it glisten as he rubbed your delicate skin.
“I’ll never get tired of tasting you,” Satoru smiled a bit, his warm breath patting against your wet folds.
“You were made just for me. God, I love it. I love you.”
Two long fingers sunk into your awaiting hole. He attached his soft lips to your clit, sucking on it.
One of your hands gripped at the luxurious pale-cerulean sheets, while your other hand gripped his hair, fingers getting lost in his white locks.
“Satoru!” A sharp moan escaped your dried throat.
Every little noise you made — every moan, every squeak of the thick mattress — it all boasted his desire to please you.
He didn’t stop his licking-sucking-fingering combo until your legs were trembling around his head and he was satisfied with tasting your juices.
Only after devouring your pussy like a starving man feasting on a buffet-style dinner did he rise from his position and make his way across the bed, hovering over you.
With a smile, Satoru leaned down and planted a soft kiss against your lips. But, when he pulled away, he was met with an amused look of disgust.
“What’s wrong?” He asked, furrowing his brows a bit.
“You just kissed me after eating me out,” you said with a little, playful grimace. “That’s nasty.”
“Mrs. Gojo, I mean this in the most respectful way possible, but hush.” Satoru lightly tapped your forehead. “You have swallowed plenty of my-”
“Ah, ah, ah,” shaking your head, you cut off your husband’s naughty sentence, pressing your hand against his lips.
The corners of your mouth burned as you tried to fight off a smile. His latest affectionate nickname was Mrs. Gojo — although it truly wasn’t a nickname due to it technically being your name now — and at every given opportunity, he addressed you that way.
Even after two years of marriage, he was as excited as a freshly wedded man. Your love was a never-ending honeymoon.
You stared into Satoru’s striking blue eyes. He darted his gaze across your gorgeous face, illuminated by the moonlight, and as you ran your fingers through his white hair and he ran his thumb across your cheek, both of you close enough to feel the gentle pats of each other’s breaths on your mesmerizing faces, you both fell in love with each other just a bit more — if that was even possible.
“Can I fuck you now?”
Satoru’s question made a sudden chuckle spilled out from between your lips. He couldn’t help but laugh too.
“You’re a buffoon. I’m trying to admire your beauty and that’s what you open your mouth to say?” You playfully frowned.
“I don’t think I’ve ever heard a human being call another human being a buffoon out loud before.”
“Whatever,” you rolled your eyes humorously. “We need to do our skincare routine first. We have to do it an hour before we go to bed or else we might just rub all the product off. I read that somewhere.”
“Why didn’t we do it before we got into bed in the first place?” Satoru buried his head in the crook of your neck, pouting, but taking a moment to press a little kiss onto your skin.
“Because you were acting as if you were dying of poison and eating me out was the antidote, so I forgot.” you giggled softly.
“Fine, fine,” your husband slowly rolled off of you in defeat. “Skincare routine, nothing more. Please don’t start trying to organize the bath towels.”
“I’m not making any promises,” you said, getting out of bed and following Satoru into the master bathroom.
There, you and your husband stood in front of the big mirror, cleansing and moisturizing your skin as you both chatted about his students, a movie you watched three days ago, and your breakfast plans in the morning.
And it was those sweet little moments that made Satoru’s heart skip a beat. As he flickered his eyes over to your reflection, watching your smother smooth white cream all over your face as you rambled on about a new egg recipe, he couldn’t help but think about how much he loved you.
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6:00 A.M.
That night ended with soft sex and gentle kisses.
That morning, Satoru’s white eyelashes fluttered open to the early morning sun starting to rise, casting rays through the drawn window curtains and across his comforter.
He squinted his eyes and yawned.
Typically, he was the sort of man who would never wake up at the ungodly hour if he could help it, but the tantalizing aroma of fresh coffee and sizzling eggs had traveled from the kitchen downstairs to right underneath his nose.
Tossing on his blue house-coat, the grumpy-faced man dragged himself into the kitchen, greeting you with a slightly gruff morning voice and a messy head of hair.
“Good morning, baby,” Satoru walked around the kitchen island and loosely wrapped his arms around your waist, hugging you from behind. “How’d you sleep? I had a nightmare.”
With a spatula in one hand, you flipped the omelet in the skillet on the six-burner stove. With the other hand, you rubbed his arm, enjoying the warmth his hovering hug had brought.
“I slept alright,” you said. “Did the smell wake you up?”
“Always does,” he smiled lazily although you couldn’t see it.
“Well, your drink’s ready,” you gave a nod in the general direction of the silver espresso machine, which hummed as it brewed Satoru’s steamy beverage.
“I don’t deserve you,” Satoru’s arms hugged you tighter, and he showered the side of your head with kisses.
“Stop it,” your sweet laughter only egged him on as you clenched the spatula and leaned back against him even more. “No fooling around when we’re this close to the stove.”
Satoru eventually backed away after giving you one final kiss against your forehead temple.
“If all goes well, I should be back home tomorrow before dark, then we can check out that new restaurant. What do you say? I personally think it’s time for a date.”
The image of you and Satoru sipping on wine and as you wore your favorite dress flashed in your mind, and you smiled. A date night was certainly something to look forward to in light of Satoru’s overnight trip.
Sorcering duties had often taken him on distant work trips. Truth be told, you were lucky his departure would only last around twenty-four hours and not twenty-four days. Although you missed him whenever he would leave, you understood his choice of career. He was a hero.
You happened to be an ordinary human being. You couldn’t see curses. You couldn’t use cursed energy or cursed techniques, but you were fine with that.
“A date sounds fun! I’m excited now.” You took the omelet out of the skillet and placed it on a nearby plate. “And we’re making time to try out that new pottery class too. It sounds like such a cute date idea, don’t you think so?”
“I’m with you. I’ll make the reservations for the restaurant, you can schedule us for pottery-making.” This time, he was the one blissfully picturing you and him spinning messy clay with him sitting behind you and reaching around your body for the pottery wheel, your fingers intertwined as you both created a pot. Satoru smiled at the thought. “Anyway, now that you’re done cooking, can I kiss you?”
You nodded with a cheeky grin, and your husband pressed his lips against yours sweetly.
It was as if some part of him was frightened that he would never get the opportunity to kiss you again.
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8:37 P.M.
The bright light far above your head flickered briefly as you stood in the pasta aisle at your local grocery store, but you hadn’t noticed it, too fixated on the different brands of spaghetti noodles lying on the shelf above you.
Shopping at night wasn’t preferable, but only after tossing together a simmering pan of sauce did you realize you hadn’t started boiling your noodles yet.
And, with your pot of simmering water ready, you opened the cabinet to see no noodles.
So, here you were, making a last-minute, unplanned trip to the grocery store.
By now, the only sort of pasta noodles left were the ones that a person of average height couldn’t reach. Every box was too high.
You turned your head to the left and to the right.
You even bothered to walk down a few aisles to search for an employee or anyone who might have been tall enough to reach your needed item, but the only other person staggering around was an older blonde-haired woman who was shorter than you were.
Frowning in frustration, you returned to the pasta aisle.
If you had to climb the shelves, so be it.
Suddenly, a kind voice spoke over the calming public-friendly background music playing softly in the store.
“Need some help?”
Whipping your head around, you saw a person — a taller person, thank goodness — who had a smile that was just as sweet as his voice.
“Yes, thank you!” You found that his grin was rather contagious, as you ended up smiling as well. “I just need the spaghetti noodles on the top shelf. Any brand will do.”
The beaming man with long, dark hair stepped forward, and you moved to the side, letting the apparent hero save your day.
He pulled down your desired spaghetti noodles with ease.
“Thanks for your help. My spaghetti sauce won’t go to waste now,” you said politely.
Your eyes darted up to the stitched scar across his forehead, then quickly, you glanced away.
“You’re welcome. Have a good night.”
The man walked down the aisle and left.
There was something familiar about him, oddly enough.
That hair . . . that smile . . .
He reminded you of an old, deceased friend of Satoru’s, one that you hadn’t ever met due to his villainous behavior before his death, but you had seen an old picture of him that he and your husband took during their second year at Jujutsu High, years ago.
As you placed the pasta noodles into your cart, making your way around different aisles to collect a few more items since you were already at the store, you decided that you’d take another look at that photograph once you arrived home, just for peace of mind.
The brown paper bag stuffed with groceries felt rather heavy as you walked down the street, which was brightened by light pouring out of the windows of local businesses that hadn’t yet closed.
You sighed softly.
The dark sky was sparkling with stars. The air was cool and comforting. Soon, you’d have pasta, and perhaps, you’d watch a few episodes of your favorite binge-worthy Netflix show.
If only Satoru was with you.
Chatting with him on the phone a few hours ago only made you miss him even more, but, at least his trip would be a quick one, and soon, you could have dinner with him and listen to his hilarious commentary as you watched television together.
After walking for around five minutes, you were no longer close to the local businesses that made you feel a sense of comfort during your evening stroll.
Now, you had to rely on the occasional streetlight to guide you home.
But that cold air was no longer comforting. It was a chilling breeze that made you clench your grocery bag a bit tighter.
Your footsteps suddenly halted — you could hear something moving in the nearby bushes.
Turning around, you were greeted with nothing but darkness and streetlights. No one else was with you. You kept walking.
However, something wasn’t right.
You might not have been a sorcerer, but you weren’t a fool.
And you had a gut-wrenching feeling that right now, as your wobbly legs guided you home, you were being watched.
You heard that noise again.
The grocery bag crinkled against your chest. You were certain that the bread you purchased was squished by now. If someone was following you, did you really want to unintentionally lead them to your home?
Where should you go? What should you do?
A tear rolled down your cheek from fear.
You were scared. You only wanted to go home, finish your pasta, and watch television.
You didn’t want to deal with such a potentially terrifying situation.
Pulling out your phone, you opened your dial screen.
Your trembling thumb hovered over the buttons, but before you could press anything, a black, disfigured curse appeared in front of you, screeching loudly enough to make you drop everything in your hands and cover your ears, more tears falling as the horrifying monster started to charge at you.
You tried to run in the other direction, but it was too late.
The last thing you saw before you were engulfed by darkness was that man from the grocery store standing on the sidewalk, that same sweet smile on his familiar face.
—
12:27 A.M.
Satoru’s eyes snapped open. He couldn’t remember falling asleep, as he had spent most of the night tossing and turning because you weren’t lying next to him. But, apparently, he did manage to catch a couple of hours of shut-eye.
When he awakened, there was a terrible ache in his heart. Dread pooled in the pit of his stomach, and beads of sweat decorated his forehead. His throat was dried to a crisp.
He was all alone in his dark hotel room.
He couldn’t hear you.
He couldn’t see you.
And yet, somehow, someway, thanks to his great power, he knew that his wife was calling for him.
—
The overwhelming scent of old, wet, musky wood and dust would never be forgotten by your memory. A lifetime of therapy would never be able to erase the paralyzing fear you felt, sitting on the cold, hard ground of an abandoned cabin with your hands bound behind your back.
Maybe the fear wasn’t completely paralyzing, though. Your body seemed to tremble with terror just fine.
The sight of it made Suguru Geto — no, Kenjaku chuckle.
He kept his eye on you for no other reason besides his entertainment, as watching you himself was pointless considering he had two frightening curses looming over you.
Once, Satoru shared a fun fact with you: regular human beings cannot see curses unless they are about to die.
That fact was certainly interesting when the two of you were strolling through the beautiful park, a red and white striped blanket in your hand and a picnic basket in his. But, now, that fact only made sweat drip off of your scarred forehead, because you could see the two, black, disfigured curses.
It was a telltale sign that you could die.
“I haven’t had the displeasure of meeting him myself,” Kenjaku suddenly spoke, relaxing in a chair he had positioned a few feet away from the corner you were trapped in. “But I have seen memories of Satoru Gojo that belonged to this body I’ve inhabited. And, I must say, I couldn’t imagine that his wife would be such a weakling. It’s truly pathetic.”
Even if you wanted to reply to him, fear had snatched away your ability to speak. It created a lump in your throat that couldn’t be swallowed down.
“My best guess is that he needs someone boring and ordinary in his life to keep house while he’s busy saving the world. You’re just the cook and maid with a ring on her finger, hm?”
“He loves me.”
Your voice was small — it was a painfully perfect reflection of how you felt on the inside. Weak and pathetic.
“Oh?” Kenjaku raised his eyebrows, smiling slightly. “Believe it or not, I hope you’re right, or else kidnapping you was a waste of time.”
Your chains rattled as you shifted in your spot on the floor, scooting as far into the corner as you could get. An ache shot up your spine from the wall pressing into your back. Pulling your knees to your chest, more tears slipped from your eyes.
“Aw, don’t cry,” he falsely cooed. “Surely you’ve wondered why the world’s strongest sorcerer would settle for someone who forgets to double-check all of their ingredients before they start cooking, haven’t you? It’s not because of love, or anything of the sort. It’s because those who are deeply insecure would do anything to please anyone who looks their way. Only an ordinary, desperate housewife with low self-esteem and no ambition would waste time caring for a man who risks his life saving strangers. What would make you think he cares for you when he spends more time with curses than his own wife? Helping strangers more than his own family? Think about it.”
Kenjaku’s hurtful words were met with silence, but he didn’t stop speaking.
“I bet you’re nothing but a burden to him. Someone like him probably hates being tied down, but marrying a fool who contributes nothing to society is the only way he can get someone else to handle his laundry while he’s busy working hard, hm? He must carry around divorce papers, ready to serve them to you the day you forget to buy detergent from the grocery store.” Kenjaku’s smile brightened. “Oh, that reminds me. You dropped your detergent and other groceries on the road earlier, by the way. Looks like you’re useless now.”
“You . . .” your teary eyes flickered from him to the hovering curses. “You don’t know what you’re talking about. None of that’s true.”
“You have to believe that I’m speaking honestly, Y/N.” Kenjaku sighed with fake sincerity. “My entire plan rests on the hope that Satoru Gojo is foolish enough to try to rescue you. You see, when you want to lure someone out, the proper way to do it is by discovering their weaknesses. When I found out about you, I was hoping that you would be his weakness. That I could use you to lure him out. Then I met you, and, well, you’re simply disappointing. Sorry to break it to you, but I have memories of the old conversations Satoru used to have with Suguru, and being tied down to a powerless housewife was certainly not how he imagined his future. But, I figured I’d try anyway, and so here you are, and he’s not here to rescue you. What a shame. I bet he’s hoping I’ll kill you so he’ll be free.”
He was lying. He had to be. Satoru loved you more than anything . . . right?
The thought had crossed your mind before; why did Satoru want to be with someone powerless? And this villain’s plan to lure out your husband relied on his hope that he’d come to rescue you out of love, so how would it benefit him to convince you Satoru didn’t love you?
Maybe he was right.
After all, if Satoru cared for you, he would have saved you by now. Where was he?
You couldn’t help but cry even harder.
“Please let me go home,” your tears clouded your vision. “Please let me go.”
“Well, you should know that I hate wasting time,” Kenjaku rested his chin in the palm of his hand, elbow pressing into the arm of the chair he sat in. “I can’t let you leave. I won’t let the effort I put into kidnapping you be a total waste.”
Kenjaku’s smile widened, and suddenly, the curses started to move towards you.
—
1:45 A.M.
The subway station was isolated. No ordinary human beings were lurking around, and Satoru was relieved. Right now, he’d kill anyone who looked at him the wrong way.
His shoes gently shuffled against the ground as he made his way into the middle of the big, bright opening, and he clenched his fists, his nails digging into the skin of his palm, hard enough to draw blood.
Two special grade cursed spirits emerged. He recognized them both from a previous fight in the woods.
Volcano head. Asparagus.
“Satoru Gojo,” Jogo suddenly said. “We didn’t think you’d be foolish enough to-”
“Where is my wife?”
When Satoru interrupted the curse, his voice was low. Dark. Startling.
Blood dripped from his palms and splattered onto the ground.
“I was drawn here, but she isn’t here, is she? Where is she? Tell me now, and I’ll kill you quickly instead of slowly.”
Jogo chuckled a bit. Satoru dug his nails into his palm even more.
“Bring us the vessel, Yuji Itadori, and we’ll return that worthless-”
The two curses didn’t have time to blink — weren’t able to register in their minds that Satoru had moved from his previous spot until Jogo was lifted off of the ground and thrown into the flickering light fixture above, shattering it and causing sparks to rain down onto the ground below, where he then fell.
Satoru stepped on Jogo’s head, squishing it underneath his black shoe.
“I remember you. You’re stubborn, right?” Satoru gritted his teeth. “Who the hell do you think you are to take her from me? Whoever you work for must want you dead if they’re stupid enough to send you on a suicide mission. You think I’ll let you leave here alive after this?”
“If you kill us, you’ll never see her again,” the other cursed spirit, Hanami, suddenly spoke up. “Bring us the vessel, and she lives.”
When Satoru suddenly stopped moving, it was only to ensure that he had heard the cursed spirit correctly.
“Did you just threaten . . .” Satoru removed his blindfold, “to kill my wife?”
It was only a matter of time before the branches attached to Hanami’s head were ripped out, and Jogo was beheaded. The subway was reduced to nothing except crumbling walls and darkness. While the cursed spirits were teetering dangerously between life and death, there wasn’t a scratch on Satoru. Instead, there was a smile.
This was simply the consequence of their actions. This was what happened to anyone who laid a hand on his girl.
Hanami’s body was on the brink of collapse as it was forced to come in contact with Satoru’s cursed technique — a blue shield-like piece of infinity that distorted and manipulated both time and space, protecting the sorcerer from attacks and rendering Hanami powerless.
Hanami’s eyes darted over to their beheaded ally — they couldn’t help him.
“I’m going to ask you one last time,” Satoru���s eyes widened. His smile grew. He slowly turned, facing Hanami, and blasted him back against the nearest wall without lifting a finger. “Where is my wife?”
—
2:39 A.M.
Kenjaku had never understood the concept of love, and, perhaps, that was why he failed.
Satoru’s love for you was his weakness, that was true, but it also turned out to be his greatest strength, and this was a fight Kenjaku couldn’t win.
Not today.
One of his curses, which had been traveling to and fro to observe what was currently taking place in the subway station and reporting it back to Kenjaku, had informed him that Jogo and Hanami were on the brink of death.
He couldn’t lose them yet. They were too powerful, and he needed their help for his future plans.
Kenjaku left the cabin, taking his curses with him.
And, without their cursed energy purposely making it difficult for Satoru to find you, he was able to pinpoint your exact location.
It appeared in his powerful mind as he was ripping Hanami apart limb by limb, and he wasn’t a fool. He didn’t know who was behind all of this, but it was clear that the mastermind had suddenly decided to let your whereabouts be tracked down in order to save Hanami and Jogo.
He didn’t want to make that deal. He wanted to kill these two, bring them back to life, and kill them over again. Their pain brought him joy, all because they took part in your capture.
But Satoru didn’t want his bloodlust to backfire. After all, if he killed the cursed spirits now, the person who held you captive could change their mind and move you someplace else and hide your location yet again, or, worse — they could kill you.
That wasn’t a chance he was willing to take.
Satoru stopped using his technique. But, as he left the subway station, he promised himself that eventually, he would kill those two. He would kill anyone and everyone involved.
But you came first.
You would always come first.
—
He found you.
When Satoru kicked open the door belonging to a raggedy, abandoned cabin, the scent of blood overwhelmed him. It dirtied his boots as he kneeled by your side. Your unconscious, bleeding body was lying there, simply left on the ground as if you were nothing.
“Y/N . . .” Satoru called out breathlessly.
He took the chains off of you instantly, his bloodshot eyes darting over every gaping wound.
It was indescribable — the anger he felt. He wanted to return to the subway and finish off those cursed spirits, to make them suffer and suffer and suffer.
But tending to you took priority right now. Satoru scooped up your broken and bruised body, holding you as softly as he could. A tear fell from his eye, splattering against your cheek.
“I’ve got you, it’s okay,” he spoke gently.
Your eyelids fluttered as you awakened. An overwhelming sense of pain slammed into you once you regained consciousness, and hot tears streamed down your cheeks. Prior to this, the only pain you had ever known was the wholesome body ache from tripping and falling while playing outside with your friends as a child. But this level of misery took away your ability to speak. Left you wondering if you were going to die.
You could make out stains of your blood on Satoru’s clothes.
Even so, you could tell based on the pained look on his face that he was suffering even more just from seeing you in such a condition.
“I’m sorry, baby,” he mumbled, slowly getting off the ground as he carried you. “This is all my fault. They did this to you because of me. I’m so sorry.”
Satoru raised you a bit, gently pressing a soft kiss against your forehead.
He’d give anything to switch places with you right now — to be the one in unspeakable pain. Why couldn’t they have kidnapped him? Tortured him? If he had the power to take away your suffering and give it to himself, he would. For you, not only would he kill, but he’d die, repeatedly and without a second thought or a moment of hesitation.
As Satoru took you to the nearest hospital, his tears spilling onto your body, he said, “We’re almost there, okay? I promise I’ll make them pay for this, and no one will ever lay a hand on you again.”
Arriving into the uncomforting white halls of the emergency room, Satoru handed you off to the nurses and doctors who rushed up to him. But, before they placed you on the nearest stretcher, Satoru kissed your forehead once again as unconsciousness claimed you, and he whispered, “I love you, Y/N.”
—
10:02 A.M.
Two days later, you awakened in a hospital bed. This time, pain didn’t greet you, but grogginess and blurred vision. The gentle beeps from the nearby machines certainly didn’t help your pounding headache.
Your sight started to clear up after blinking a few times.
Soft strands of hair tickled your arm, and when you looked to your left, you saw Satoru slumped in a chair, his head resting in his arms on the side of your bed. You reached over and ruffled his messy white hair a bit.
He shot up, startled. His blue eyes were wide with alarm, then they softened with gratefulness, but, lastly, they darted down with sorrow.
“Y/N . . . thank god, you’re awake.” Satoru croaked out in his morning voice, clearing his throat a bit. He was dehydrated — too focused on your recovery to worry about himself. “I’m so sorry, sweetheart. I’m so . . .”
Satoru got out of his chair, sat on the side of your bed, and leaned over, resting the side of his head against your chest.
“I’m so sorry,” he repeated.
“It’s not your fault,” you mumbled weakly. “It’s mine.”
Satoru pulled his head away from you, staring at you with furrowed brows and a confused gaze.
“What? No, it’s not.”
You couldn’t find the courage to look him in the eye. Kenjaku’s words replayed in your mind. They hurt just as much as getting attacked by curses.
As if reading your thoughts, Satoru cupped your chin, turning your head back in his direction.
“Look at me,” he said. “What happened wasn’t your fault. I know what you’re thinking, and I don’t care if you can’t fight curses-”
“You’re just saying that . . . because I’m kinda useful to you. But I’m easily replaceable. Speaking honestly, I’m a burden. You had to come save my life, and put yourself in danger. I’m not worth it.”
“You think I married you because you’re useful?” Hurt flashed in Satoru’s piercing eyes. “I’m in love with you, and you’ll never be a burden. I don’t care if you can’t fight curses. You’re my wife for a reason, and that’s because there’s nothing greater than seeing you get excited over finding your favorite snack at the grocery store or seeing the way you smile when your favorite scene from a show comes on, and you sit there and watch it as if you haven't seen it a thousand times. I love the way your eyes light up when you find a new activity in town for us to try, or a new book to read, or a new recipe. God, I just . . . I love you. I love you more than anything. I don’t know how you’re able to put up with someone like me. Every day I wonder how I got so lucky because I don’t deserve you. You’re too good for me, and I haven’t met anyone as loving as you are. You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Do you understand me? I’d kill and die for you.”
Satoru gently wiped away the tear that fell from your eyes with his thumb.
“I love you too,” you smiled softly, leaning into his touch. “I’m sorry we missed our dinner reservations and the pottery class.”
Satoru couldn’t help but lean in and kiss your cheek.
“I’ve already rescheduled two weeks out.”
Moving away from your cheek, your husband softly kissed your lips. And while he had spent time rescheduling your date night and making sure you were receiving the excellent care you deserved while in the hospital, he was also hard at work, tracking down the monsters that dared to lay a hand on you.
He would make them suffer.
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FIREFLIES NEVER CAME ; SATORU GOJO
synopsis; your seat is close to the heater. that’s the only reason gojo comes there to warm up.
word count; 4.2k
contents; satoru gojo/reader, gn!reader, teen!satoru, set in a canon au, mutual pining, fluff, a little bittersweet (melancholic winter vibes <3), introvert/extrovert, reader is antisocial and dense as a brick (black cat vibes :3), also kind of self-deprecating, satoru is very shoujo manga coded, just lots of puppy love!! feat. wingman!suguru <3
a/n; this wasn’t meant to be a fic …… it was gonna be really short and sweet ……… (T_T) anyway i am very fond of this reader/character dynamic so i hope you enjoy reading abt my emotionally stunted kids 🫶 biggest mwah in the world dedicated to professor logan (@staryukis) for teaching me about physics so i could find a loophole in satoru’s infinity :3c all for the sake of lore-accurate (kinda) fluff <3
”what are you listening to?”
your seat is close to the heater.
it was nothing but a lucky draw, on your part. yaga-sensei was organizing the desks on your first day, and so he gave you the first choice; one you had no trouble making, latching onto the chair in the very back, right by the window. right by the sole heater of the room. vital for surviving your chilly winter classes.
so there you sit. warmth sneaks through your fuzzy socks, tends to your restless legs; your feet tap and tap on the cold floorboards, in rhythm with your never-ending thoughts, planets out of orbit.
through the fogged-up, frosted glass of the window to your left, you observe the world. headphones safe and snug and covering your ears, muffling all grating noise. you watch as snow falls, wholly entranced, eyes stuck on the icy snowflakes descending from the wool-gray sky — blanketing the frostbitten landscape of the courtyard. it’s pretty, all those skeletal trees, glittering and gleaming like they have something to say. sometimes they look like stars.
”… hey. did you hear me?”
gojo is being particularly chatty, today.
out of the corner of your eye, you see him wave his hand right in front of your face. you’re almost certain he doesn’t realize that it’s rude; he must be used to all eyes being on him, from the moment he speaks.
with a flutter of your lashes, you lift your weary head. just to meet his gaze, the blurry shine of your own visage, reflected in his circle-frame glasses. a soft tilt of his head, and then his lips are twitching upwards, just barely, snowy strands gliding across his forehead and falling over his face. like an excited puppy.
”what are you listening to?”
you read the words off his lips, all sound muffled by your headphones. quick to lift one of your hands, pulling one of the heavy cushions away — letting all white noise in the room flood your senses. the snarls of the wind outside, ieiri’s laughter, the scribbling of geto’s pen against paper. monotone. loud.
it’s overwhelming, but a small price to pay. his voice is softer than usual, during moments like these; there’s a pleasant lull to it.
gojo tips his head to the right, still awaiting your response. all you can do is stare, watching your own reflection, fingers gripping onto the edge of your desk. as if seeking to ground yourself.
with a spoonful of hesitance, you part your lips.
”… do you like music?”
the words seep out into the air, a softly exhaled breath. gojo watches you, silently, for just a moment.
then he gives you a shrug.
”i guess?” he hums, shifting his weight from one foot to another — hand slipping into the pocket of his uniform. ”that’s more suguru’s thing.”
ah.
your mouth forms around the syllable, as if responding, but not making any sound. gaze fleeing from his glasses, crumbling under their weight, straying towards the frosted window to your left. safe, familiar, rotting trees and twitching branches. snow just as pure as the boy in front of you.
silence overtakes you both, once more.
”... not gonna answer?” he asks, with another tilt of his head, absently rocking side to side as he lets out an exhale. ”is it a secret, or something?”
(it is, you think. but you can’t say it out loud.)
before you can part your lips again, the classroom door slides open — and you know it’s yaga-sensei just by the way his feet hit the floorboards, the decisive weight behind every step. you know even before he’s telling you to get back to your seats.
on cue, gojo stands up straighter, shooting you another glance. bright-eyed, easy-going, every star in the sky leaping out from the glimpse you get of his eyes when he angles his body. two blue pools, flecked with white, like frozen puddles in the street.
and then he’s strolling away.
gojo leaves, and you take off your headphones; stretching your legs underneath the desk. reaching for your ballpoint pencil, flipping open your textbook, and indulging in sleepy blinks, as yaga begins to drone on and on. you stifle a yawn with the sleeve of your blazer, resting your jaw on the heel of your palm. eyes inevitably straying towards a head of white hair.
but your name is called before you can get lost in your daydreams.
”page 27, from the top.”
your chair scrapes against the floorboards, as you sluggishly stand up. holding onto your textbook, flipping the pages until you land on the correct passage. with shaky hands, not enough to notice, you read out loud; voice controlled, almost monotone. all you can think is that you feel his frost-clad eyes on you, from the row straight ahead.
but you continue to speak. you speak until you reach the end of the page, until you’re allowed to take your seat again, happy to feel the warmth of the heater radiate against your legs. it’s this warmth that’s important, the most important thing of all.
without it, gojo wouldn’t bother to stop by your desk.
nearly every recess, as soon as yaga leaves the classroom, he’s waltzing over — leaning against the wall, stretching his arms out, purring contentedly as heat spreads throughout his body. you think he must run cold. chatting with you, just to pass the time, just until your teacher comes back. just to warm up.
then he’s leaving, again.
that’s all it is. a cold boy, and a heater by your desk — a conversation that otherwise wouldn’t have occured. even the strongest is vulnerable to changes in temperature, you suppose.
though if warmth is all that binds him to you, it’s bound to dwindle away.
(you’re sure he’ll stop as soon as spring comes.)
the next day, gojo is nowhere to be seen. you saw yaga-sensei drag him out of the classroom this morning; something about a clan meeting, something you weren’t paying attention to.
but now you wish you had.
(it’s quiet, without him around. eerily so.)
with nothing to lose, and nothing else to do — you push your chair away from your desk, and walk up to your classmate, a question on your mind.
”… music? are you looking for recommendations?”
you nod.
geto blinks. caught off guard, you’re sure, surprised that you’d approach him without any prior coaxing. he’s usually the one striking up a conversation with you, like a responsible class president, making sure the weird kid doesn’t feel left out. you’re almost certain he doesn’t realize that it’s patronizing.
”hmm... well, that depends.” he gives you a smile, soft around the edges. it never feels as genuine as gojo’s, but it’s calming. ”what kind of music do you usually listen to?”
…
you glance down at the floor. bundling up the cuffs of your uniform, fingers clawing softly at the fabric, bottom lip trapped between two sets of teeth.
”… what kind of music does gojo like?”
silence. your words are barely spoken, just above a whisper, just like always, but geto picks up on them anyway. you can tell he does, can feel the weight of his keen eyes on your face. analytical.
then he parts his lips.
”… ohhh.” a low hum, ripe with meaning, buzzing at the bottom of his throat. the corners of his lips quirk up into a knowing smile. ”i see.”
heat rushes to your cheeks, blossoms under your skin. if he notices, he’s even more composed than you thought he was, because he doesn’t mention it. only continues to speak, in that soothing voice, crossing his arms in silent thought.
”hmm…” you follow his gaze, out towards the window, the same webs of frost as always. it’s not snowing, but you still can’t see the blue of the sky. ”i’ve never seen him listen to music before, so i wouldn’t know.”
you can’t help but deflate, at that.
geto only smiles. exhaling, through his nose, mildly humoured — though he’s good at hiding his amusement. ”… what do you think that means?”
a blink. your lashes flutter, as you gaze up at him.
”… huh?”
”satoru doesn’t listen to music, but he wants to know what you’re listening to.” he says the words almost coachingly, like he’s listing off a string of numbers. you realize he must have been listening in on your conversation, but it doesn’t bother you nearly as much as his tone. ”what do you think that means?”
…
(you haven’t got a clue.)
geto lets out a chuckle, laced with mirth, no longer trying to hide it. paired with a soft shake of his head, a crinkle to the corners of his eyes. ”why do you want to know about his taste in music, then?”
(… that’s a good question.)
he seems to notice your hesitance, your apprehension, the way your teeth seek to trap your bottom lip; always the victim of your muddled mind. you know the answer, of course you do — but it isn’t something you want others knowing.
thankfully, geto breaks the silence for you.
”i don’t think you need to try so hard, when it comes to him.” his voice is soft, almost sincere, something warmer than usual. glancing away when you meet his eyes. ”… he isn’t worth the effort, anyway.”
but that’s where he’s wrong.
satoru gojo is a special case. a special person. in the orbit of your life, there’s no star you’d rather keep — no one quite as ripe with colour.
geto couldn’t possibly understand, because gojo is always with him — always orbiting around him. he always will, until you graduate, probably even beyond that. geto has him. they’re the strongest, a pair, always matching their steps to one another. but you only have these quiet days, these chilly classes in between never-ending missions — and that’s all.
when the frost outside the window thaws, gojo will surely stop visiting your desk. your lonely little world.
that’s exactly why — you need to find a song. if you just teach him about something wonderful enough, if you can give him something other than warmth…
(… maybe he’ll stay with you even after spring comes.)
”next time, why don’t you say what’s on your mind?”
geto’s suggestion breaks you out of your thoughts. when you raise your head, to meet the warm pools of amber in his eyes, he gives you a smile. there’s nothing patronizing about the way he’s looking at you now — if anything, you think it may even be slightly fond, but you can never tell what he’s actually feeling. he’s frightening, like that, always a mirror to his circumstances. a chameleon, tilting his head at you.
… though you can’t help but fall victim to the kindness in his eyes. the velveteen purr of his voice.
”i’m sure he’ll appreciate that.”
a nervous pit opens up in your chest, an empty space that gnaws incessantly at your heart. will he?, you want to ask, but it feels like the words are made out of lead. you can’t get them out of your throat.
”… okay,” is all you end up whispering, a soft lull of your tongue. ”i’ll try… thank you.”
geto rewards you with a full smile.
”don’t mention it.”
spring is closer than you thought.
it’s all you can think, when you step onto the pavement, when you feel the morning air gnaw at your frostbitten cheeks. it’s freezing, it’s winter, but the signs of changing seasons are still there — a lonesome snowdrop, the crackle of an icy puddle beneath your feet. the frost is beginning to thaw.
in a month or so, spring will be here — there’s no stopping it.
”did you bring your card?”
your headphones rest around your neck, allowing you to listen in on your classmates' conversation. all four of you are together, for once, all first-years, walking towards the nearest konbini — at gojo’s insistence.
it’s been a week since you had that talk with geto, but you still haven’t made any progress with him.
”huh? was i supposed to?”
”… are you kidding me?”
you glance up at the pair. always walking just a little bit ahead, their tall statures obscuring the view in front of you; shoko lags behind, with lazy steps, a trail of tobacco drifting out into the crispy air. all while snowflakes fall from the sky, gently, landing in your hair, on your shoulders, melting on the inside of your palm when you hold it out to catch them. watching as they turn into droplets of water, slip through the gaps between your fingers.
someone taps your shoulder.
geto has snowflakes stuck in his hair. they’re melting, in the strands of ink-black framing his face, matching the colour of the thick polo jacket he’s wearing. a bright red scarf is tied around his throat, and there’s a weighty look in his eyes — something telling.
a silent cue.
he falls back, slowly but surely, into ieiri’s lazy pace. not before murmuring something unintelligible to gojo, and shooting you a wink — one that makes you frown, confused, a low heat blooming at the base of your spine and crawling up your neck.
and then you realize what he’s done.
gojo is looking right at you, through the black glass of his specs. only wearing a baseball jacket, no gloves or scarves to keep him warm, despite the harsh bite of the open air. for a guy who runs cold, he must not put much thought into his clothing.
more importantly…
it’s just the two of you, now.
you blink at him, silent as a mouse. it only takes a moment for him to start moving, for you to follow, taking your place beside him while staring right ahead. if he’s bothered by geto slinking away, he doesn’t show it — only continues to walk.
”… that’s so unfair.”
gojo’s voice breaks the silence. you turn your head to gaze at him, the way his lips wrap around the vowels, haphazardly hanging onto every word he speaks.
”just ’cause i have clan money,” he kicks at a pebble on the side of the road, wisps of white hair swaying with a shake of his head, ”suguru thinks i should pay for our snacks. isn’t that unfair?”
you hesitate. then you nod along, absently.
he seems to take that as a yes, because it makes him brighten — as if gleaming with your approval, standing a little straighter, puffing out his chest with an exhale that turns into white smoke.
”right? they only give it to me because they want me to come back to kyoto, anyway…” he trails off, holding the tip of his tongue between his lips. ”… not that it matters. anyway, i just think he’s oppressive.”
”… mm.”
from this angle, you can see a sliver of his eyes. can see the way he steals a glance at you, without even turning his head — hands slipping into his pockets. there’s a moment of silence, until he’s parting his lips again.
”… i can buy some for you, though.”
(you barely pick up on the words, spoken almost in a whisper — as if an afterthought.)
he clears his throat.
”… if you don’t have the money, i mean.”
you can’t help but blink, at that — lashes fluttering in rapid succession, wondering if you heard him correctly. he doesn’t seem keen on elaborating, though. walking on, ignoring all snowflakes descending from the sky, eager to nuzzle in between his locks. his infinity keeps them out.
”… why?”
it’s all you can say. all you can verbalize.
(in a story like this, why would the brightest star of all orbit around someone like you?)
gojo gives you another glance. his iris cuts into your skin, observes you on what you’re sure must be a molecular level. he lets silence linger, for a moment, tipping his head back to look up at the sky.
gray, and more gray. flecks of white. you’d see the same thing he does.
”hmm…” he lets out a breath, head falling forward again, snowy strands ghosting against the skin of his forehead. ”let’s call it a trade.”
another series of blinks.
gojo turns towards you, then — a fresh grin blooming on his lips. white teeth, pink gums. it makes him look boyish, innocent, just another city boy with too much time on his hands.
”i buy you snacks — and you tell me what music you’re always listening to.” he bends his body forward, tilts his head at the same time, all lanky and charming, like a big cat. ”deal?”
you stay silent.
he’s looking at your headphones, still left neglected around your neck. your gaze falls down to the icy concrete, the thin layer of frost, waiting to be melted by the first sunrays of spring. whenever that will be.
geto and shoko are still behind you — you can hear their low, muffled chatter, smell the remnants of tobacco in the air. and you swear you can practically hear geto’s words, echoing through your head.
(why do you think that is?)
gojo is still looking at you. expectantly, lips curled up into a lazy smile. he’s waiting, you know he is, and you also know he isn’t very good at that. you know a lot of things — what you don’t know is what to say. you don’t know if you can believe in whatever geto was insinuating, don’t know if you can grapple with your own longing to do so.
(next time, why don’t you say what’s on your mind?)
geto doesn’t get it. he doesn’t know what your feelings towards gojo truly look like. doesn’t know that what’s on your mind when he’s around is always something horrifically embarrassing. something like, i want to know more about you, or maybe i wish i could tell you more about me. something awfully cheesy, like — i’m jealous of how bright you shine, but i can’t help but like you anyway.
if i become your friend, would it be okay to say i understand your loneliness? that i notice it, even just by a fraction?
would that be okay with you?
(words that should be left unspoken.)
”… well, it’s not like you have to.” gojo exhales, again, the words a heavy weight seeping past his throat. his shoulders slump, as he turns forward, fingers trailing up to scratch at the back of his neck.
all you can think is that he’s getting ready to leave. that nothing will change, at this rate, that spring will wash winter away. that geto should be more direct with his advice, and that if it’s not the music itself that gojo is interested in knowing more about, then surely —
” — i don’t listen to anything.”
gojo stills. the words have flown past your lips before you can reach out and grasp them, slicing through the open air.
he spins around, glasses slipping down the bridge of his nose at the sudden motion, exposing his widened eyes. those white lashes, fluttering softly, like a pair of doves eager to get above ground. you grip onto the insides of your pockets, warm and cozy against your freezing hands — it grounds you, keeps you tethered down to earth, down to him.
”music,” you continue, sputtering slightly, as if your lungs don’t quite know how to work under pressure. winter air seeps into your windpipe, cuts the skin there. ”i don’t listen to music.”
you lift your hands, fingers curling around the soft earmuffs wrapped around your neck, hesitantly meeting gojo’s gaze — an overlapping sequence, blanketing his view. then you’re gazing down.
”it’s just… comforting,” you try to explain, speaking softly. ”to wear them. white noise.. tires me out, so…”
the sentence trails off, unfinished. you feel silly. silly for saying anything at all, for building it up so much. silly for being the way that you are.
but when you look up at gojo, he’s brightened like a star.
white teeth, pink gums, that breathtakingly boyish grin. his blue eyes gleam with colour, almost spilling over the corners, like watercolour paint on a too-small canvas. he tilts his head, looking at you carefully, as if truly seeing you for the first time; absently swaying side to side.
if he had a tail, you’re sure it’d be wagging.
”i see!”
a silent breath spills into the air. your lips part, but no sound comes out, only vapour; heart pumping blood through your writhing veins, warming you up from the inside, a co-conspirator to the heat blooming in your cheeks. gojo continues to speak.
”i guess that counts,” he nods, crossing his arms with a satisfied hum. ”alright. i’ll get you any snacks you want! you can be greedy, it’s okay.”
a murmur of thanks escapes you, although you’d like to tell him there’s no need. something tells you denying him this would be like taking another step backwards, in this budding connection between you.
(… if you can even call it that.)
geto and ieiri catch up to your unmoving figures, finally, and only then does gojo spin on his heel and pick up his previous pace. calling back to you over his shoulder, a smile you can’t see but still hear.
”just don’t give any of it to those two, yeah?”
”cheapskate,” ieiri calls back, lone cigarette hanging between her lips. geto lets out something like a chuckle, his shoulder brushing up against yours.
you watch gojo’s back as he moves forward. unbothered, untethered. you think of him a snowflake in the breeze.
spring is almost here, now. it’s a bittersweet feeling, to know your conversations during recess will surely dwindle out — but at least you’ll have had this. one normal conversation, the knowledge that he was curious about you, even if you may just be the classmate by the heater in his eyes.
you’re too cold to keep him warm all on your own, so there’s no helping it. you’re willing to accept that some stars only show from the surface during winter.
you’re willing to accept this. it aches, a little, but you’ll be okay.
”i’ll take it things went well, then?”
geto is wearing his signature smile, when you look up at him. an expression of carefully concealed composure, lips curled up, but a knowing look in his eyes — something that borders on teasing.
you give him a nod, a bow of your head, to silently convey your appreciation. chameleon or not, you don’t really mind his ways. it’s hard to fake the warmth in his voice, when he speaks.
”i’m glad.”
the two of you watch gojo’s back, like birds gazing out at a body of water. silence lingers.
”won’t that moron get cold?”
ieiri’s voice cuts through the mold of your mind, low and gravelly, right beside you. she’s pointing towards gojo — the flimsy jacket he’s wearing.
you’re wondering the same thing.
geto casts her a glance over your head, before gazing down at you, seemingly noticing your curiosity. he lets out a low hum; reaching a hand out to brush away the snowflakes on his shoulders.
”temperature,” he begins, slipping his hands into his pockets; that familiar coaching tone to his voice, purposefully slow. ”is just a measure of atoms in rapid motion.”
you tilt your head, in tandem with ieiri — looking to your classmate for further elaboration. he seems to enjoy your confusion, lips curling up just a bit. gojo calls out to you, in the distance, waving both his hands, and geto returns it with a wave of his own.
an amber eye flicks towards you, an explanation on his tongue. ”his infinity can regulate that motion.”
… another tilt of your head.
geto lets out an amused breath. it scatters out into the air, a cloud of smoke, almost a chuckle.
”basically…” he sighs. ”he does just fine, in the cold. don’t worry about it. he’ll keep himself warm.”
ieiri mutters something, beneath her breath, something like you could have just said no, but you don’t really hear it. you think your heart must have climbed up, somehow; got caught in your windpipe.
ah.
gojo can keep himself warm.
the thought spins inside your mind, over and over, a realization that makes your inner palms feel clammy. stupid, silly, this pitter-patter of your heartbeat. but what else could it mean? if the cold doesn’t bother him, if he doesn’t run cold, then…
(he wouldn’t need it. he wouldn’t need it here, wouldn’t need it during recess, within the chilly walls of your classroom. he wouldn’t need it to stay warm.
gojo isn’t after your heater. if that’s true, then…)
…
you bury your nose in the soft wool of your scarf. breathing in the fading scent, vanilla and cinnamon, grounding you to earth, lingering in your nostrils. distracting you from the rush of warmth, that blooms in the frostbitten apples of your cheeks.
as if sensing your thoughts, or maybe just noticing your embarrassed expression, geto laughs — soft and breathy, shoulders shaking to your left. you hear it, only nuzzling deeper into the comfort of your scarf. feeling your heartbeat spin out of orbit.
in the distance, gojo continues to wave, yelling out something unintelligible. you could mistake him for a star.
spring is almost here, now. in just a month or so, it’ll be at your doorstep — waltzing right in.
(but you aren’t worried.)
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